Jill Duggar Dillard doesn’t hold back in her upcoming book – especially when it comes to revealing details about her controversial family.
In an excerpt from her memoirs The costs count published by People On Saturday, the 32-year-old former reality star recalled a meeting between her and her husband Derick Dillard had with her father Jim Bob Duggar and mom Michelle Duggar. And during the chat things got very intense!
After she wrote an open letter to her parents about the family’s problems, she and Derick sat down with Jim Bob and Michelle to heal the rift between them. They even brought in a mediator to keep the conversation productive and civil. But the meeting was to be anything but that.
Related: Jim Bob drove a wedge between Jill and husband Derick to get what he wanted!
During the meeting, Jill told the couple that she wanted to “restore family relations very soon” and “have a good discussion together” about the “hurtful things” that had happened between them. Instead of listening to her, Jim Bob had been angry about it 19 kids and counting Alum. He sat “very still, lips pressed together, eyes closed with a scowl” while Michelle brought up the letter, calling it “‘the most disrespectful thing I’ve ever read’.” Jill quickly apologized and added:
“‘We love you all and could have used more care. We wrote the letter together, hoping it would explain our feelings, but I know we kept adding to it, and then we got tired and thought we’d better send it on…'”
But Jim Bob wasn’t done yet. He then demanded an apology for a text message he received from Jill in which she accused him of being “verbally” abusive. His daughter wrote:
“I was nervous now. I remembered the message, remembered sending it in the hopes that it would wake Pops up and make him realize how bad I thought things had gotten, so that maybe he would give us some space and things would calm down let. I had written about not wanting to be insulted, and that was exactly how I felt at the time. I felt it in El Salvador too. I wasn’t sure I could apologize for that. I glanced at Derick while remaining speechless.”
Knowing he would not receive an apology as the silence continued, Jim Bob is said to have stood up and taken a step towards Jill in an “act of aggression”. She remembered:
“‘You’re not going to apologize? Really?’ His voice was loud and had an edge to it that I had rarely heard. The presenter looked pale and remained silent. Derick tensed and I felt him prepare to intervene. I squeezed his hand and hoped he would get the message.”
Jill continued in the excerpt:
“He towered over me, his whole body filled with rage. My face turned red. My eyes filled with tears. Then there was a long, terrible silence that I wanted to fill but couldn’t yet. Derick’s hand was shaking in mine and I squeezed harder than ever, desperate for him to keep his mouth shut.”
While Jill cried and “curled up” in her seat, Jim Bob continued to scream. He claimed her emotional reaction at the time was because she felt “guilty” for her actions. At this point, Jill had had enough. She fired back at her father, accusing him of treating her “worse than” her “pedophile brother.” Josh Duggar, who abused her and other siblings and is currently in prison on pornography charges. Jill wrote:
“‘You want to know why I’m crying?’ My voice was broken, my eyes were burning. “It’s that you think I’m a terrible person just because I wear pants and have a nose ring, and yet you see that girl outside and praise her.” That’s why I’m crying, Dad. I’m evolving and changing, just like that girl out there, but you can’t see it. You treat me like I’m a lost person who has turned her back on you. You treat me worse than my pedophile brother.’”
The fact that Jim Bob would treat Jill worse than her convicted pedophile brother is abhorrent.
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